exhausted...

Yesterday was quite possibly the longest, hardest day I have ever experienced.

My grandfather's funeral was really nice. He looked really good - probably the best he's looked in a long time. I think that made everyone, especially my dad, feel better. My uncle shared funny stories about him, and reminded us all of what an amazing man he was. I think my grandpa would have been pleased with how it turned out.

Last night at CSF we mourned the loss of our sister in Christ, Brianna. It was hard - I hadn't really had a chance to think about/mourn her loss since I was/am in the middle of mourning the loss of my grandfather. It was good to let the grief come instead of welling it up inside. It was good to be there amidst our community of believers. I think Brianna's death will bring a strength to our group that wasn't there before. She was an amazing girl, even though most of us only knew her for a few months. We will miss her greatly.

So, this morning I woke up and could barely move. It is amazing how draining and physically taxing that much emotion can be on a person. So, I spent the day at home just trying to recouperate. And it's snowing again, and is very beautiful. I took Emma for a walk in it just to enjoy the way it falls so silently and makes everything look new again. Then tonight I watched a great episode of Lost... frustrating but soooo good. My two questions: who will Kate choose, and where the heck is Walt???