Saturday, February 04, 2006
a little bit of sadness didn't hurt anyone
It's 6:30PM on a Saturday night and I have nothing to do. And that isn't a bad thing. Not at all, I actually look forward to an evening to myself. I've been feeling sad these past two days, about what I'm unsure... it's just there at the back of everything - like at any moment tears could roll down your face but you don't know exactly why. Last night my friend Brady told me hates to see people sad, and that I should hang out with him instead so he can make me laugh. But I think that sometimes it is really good to let the sadness out. Sadness isn't always a bad thing - in fact it is healthier to get it out and deal with it than to stuff it down (as I have been trying to do for the past 24 hours). Sometimes we need to mourn a little bit in order to experience healing and joy. Sometimes we just need to experience the full emotions inside of us so that we can be exactly who we were created to be. I'm not sure what it is I need to deal with - most likely it has to do with some hopes and dreams crumbling, some friendships changing... but so is life. I need to stare my junk in the face and move on (so Rob Bell tells me). I hope you get the chance to do the same.
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Sadness is one of those feelings we know we must feel despite the begging of our friends and our minds to "be happy" all the time. What are the dreams you have that you believe are "crumbling"?
Hey. I know this is late in coming as I haven't been keeping up with reading lately, but I totally know what you mean. I've been feeling like that a lot lately. You're right being sad isn't as bad as people make it out to be. Sure feeling things, I mean really feeling things can be incredibly painful, but I've come to realize that it must be done even if everyone around me is not happy with that. I often try to hide the fact that I'm upset about something because people are always giving the impression that they would rather here the standard answer of "I'm fine" instead of the truth. I know that I don't often get to see you, but I am so thankful that you have been there for me lately. I know I've been struggling with a lot of stuff and likely will continue to for a while. I really appreciate your friendship and encouragement. Don't forget that you can call me anytime you need to talk too. I love you, Jenny!
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