A Review and Some Honesty

The Lion, The Witch, & The Wardrobe is well worth the time and money to see. I was very impressed with it - especially that they kept it very close to the book. It looks cool - of couse because WETA did the effects for it (the same company that worked on Lord of the Rings). However, if you are expecting something similar to Lord of the Rings - either don't go or change your expectation. Because Tolkien and Lewis were two different men with two different stories, the results are different from each other. This movie is, however, true to the spirit of the book and is, I think, close to what Jack would have wanted it to be. (You know... C.S. Lewis... aka Jack... 'cause he and I are so close...).

After the movie, Dan and I had coffee together for the first time in several weeks. Because it has been so crazy lately, we haven't had much time to talk. And it was good. But it was hard. Because when you talk to someone who has been going through the same things and have been facing the same struggles, it seems like those things come rushing back to you and face you head on. And it isn't just the pain of death that has been facing us. We both have felt huge wounds this semester coming from ministry that we haven't dealt with before, and for me it has hurt me so much to the point of not really wanting to press forward. A lot of confusion. A lot of pain. It is hard to keep doing something that can be so hard - yet there are glimpses of glory in it even so. But, talking through some of that was difficult - to admit that I am still bleeding from it. To face the fact that I'm not the only one. This semester has been so hard, I can barely explain it. But there is beauty in doing campus ministry - there is a new beginning every 6 months or so. So, I'm glad it's close to being done. I need a rest. I need to stop and allow myself to grieve. For the loss of my grandpa. For the loss of Brianna. For the hurts I experienced. For a lot of loss. I need to stop pushing it away and just let it come. Please pray that I will do this. Without really feeling it, I won't be truly healed. Doesn't it say that somewhere - that God rends in order to bind up? I need to endure the rending... for I desperately need the binding up.